Say what?

This morning at church I found out that two of my good friends (Aaron & Amada) are engaged!
They had been courting since October & are to be married in September.
I was shocked because I work with Amanda and she didn't say a word last night. So far this year there are 3 weddings, two that I am photographing & thiers... so exciting!
It is so strange to have my friends engaged, getting married & having babies....I don't feel like this should be happening yet. Maybe because it feels so far off for me, in my mind I think everyone else is waiting too...HAHA yeah right! Anyway, exciting things are happening....to everyone else. I suppose to me too but those are below the surface, Abram type of stuff... God has promised me that He has a plan, a hope & a future. He is working on me even though I don't see it or comprihend how my dreams & desires will ever come to pass.

I have always dreaded the day when my friends would start getting engaged, married & have babies & I would be left with my mouth open in shock pouting because it's not my turn yet...  I am sure every young women who is single goes through this. What makes it worse is that when I was a teenager I read all sorts of romance books, you know those "Christian contemporary fiction" where the girl is in her mid-late twenties, single, hopeless romantic, a christian. She goes to church  and everytime a new guy comes she does the ring check {to see if he is available} & the whole book she is faking contentment just so she "gets her prince" & by the end everything is happy & she gets the guy. Yeah that will NOT be me. I  gave up reading those years, years ago.... In a way I believe books like that (or the Christian equivelent of harlequin romance novels) are "Christian porn" it's addicting, seems safe because "It's Christian"....but in the end it still gives an unrealistic ideal.

*BTW I don't know when this turned into a "rant" it really wasn't the intention.

Thank goodness for Gods plans! Mine would make the world explode I am sure!
Anyway... I can't think of anything else at the moment.

Ringing in the New Year

day #33

So here is a bit of a sneak peak of what I did on New Years Eve...

One of my good friends got married & I had the honor of being her photographer! For as long as I have known Kim, she has always been camera shy. I could hardly ever catch a good photo of her. However, last night I was able to take many photos of her looking so glam! I can't wait to finish all the others!

New Years was pretty good, the wedding was very nice & I even had the chance to break it down on the dance floor....*caugh* I mean spaz on the dance floor. Regardless it was a fun event, followed by a short party at another friends house. Minor incidents & all....As I was walking up to my friends door someone back into my car...my new car :(Needless to say, I was uhhh upset but my car is ok & the guy was no where near a jerk. So I am thankful that I didn't hit someone, that there wasn't damage other then scratches & a small hole in the front bumper! Praise the Lord! The small party was fun, rang in the new year with some very dear friends! *New Years Goals are coming, I have lists in different places, but I will gather my thoughts & document them!

May your new year be filled with lessons & blessings from God. Draw near to Him, rejoice, pray & give thanks!