Heart of wisdom.

I stand in awe at the sovereignty of my God.

In a time where I feel so inadequate, hopeless, sad & forgotten

God can use me.

How unworthy I am.

Tonight I was speaking with a guest about my experience of being home schooled.

As we were talking another guest came into the hallway.

This particular guest is a lesbian & is a fighter to her core.

If you mess with her she will take you down.

 As these ladies & I were talking I shared a little bit of my story with them.

I told the fighter how I use to be very much like her,

I was a fighter, not so much a physical fighter but a verbal fighter.

Backing down did not happen,

apologizing did not happen,

admitting I was wrong did not happen.

One of the guests told me she could not believe that I was an arguer or a fighter.

(I told her to ask my sister.)

By the grace of God,

a lot of falling from pride

& attitude adjustments

God has changed me.

When I don't feel like I measure up to much at all,

when I feel like I have nothing to offer,

Jesus uses what He brought me from.

Glory to Him!

Teach me to number my days,

so I may gain a heart of wisdom.

A humble, servant heart.